Well it's 2010 and I have begun the year as I mean to go on- tidying out my life.
I have decided to 'declutter' my life of not just things but also people .Of habits too.
I want to rediscover who I am and at the age of 51,try to redefine myself. A soon to be single parent .
Christmas was relatively painless apart from Christmas Day, when it wasn't my husband i missed most, but my mum. I was the only female in the house and felt it . But my dad did a great job of entertaining and worked very hard. I did help but was glad when it was all over. But the focus wasn't there because I couldn't get to church . I missed God in it all. The only glimpse I got of Him was on Christmas morning when the sun rose. And the Son of man was born.
So here I am, wading through the life I had and deciding, however painful the process, what I will keep and what I will dispose of. Its a catharthic feeling, and a necessary experience, and in it all the tears keep falling as they must. Part of the healing.
Must go,work to be done.
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