OVERLOAD

I am in overload mode.
I cannot handle work and home and church and 'personal admin' and housework and being a mum, a cook, an Elder, a friend, a car mechanic.
Something has to give.
My brain is fading fast.
My legs are not far behind it.
Time to stop.
Time for ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Chasing the Wind

Sometimes we try to find life's meaning, but just end up 'chasing the wind'.
We can feel the wind as it passes , but we can't hold on to it.
What we feel good about today is gone tomorrow. It is temporary.

It is only love that endures.
And makes us feel secure.
And alive.

Purpose

If God really did have a purpose for my life, wouldn't it be easier if He revealed it clearly for me to follow?
I know I have my part to play in understanding my role in the Big Plan , its just sometimes I find it hard to grasp the purpose of my life. For some it is very clear, for others we have to muddle along, searching for answers.
Maybe not everyone has a purpose.
And this life, however mundane, is all there is.
I hope not.

Returning From a journey

I'm back.
I haven't visited for a while - sorry.
Not sure why really - just not in the right place in my head until now.
Nothing much has changed.
Except a realization that change is not possible on your own.
Change involves others.
And luck- and God.
I have gone from looking forward and getting depressed to looking hourly and getting by.
I find it helps.
Otherwise the big black cloud descends and that paralyzes me.
I drown in tears and self pity and despair.
And the hope I long for disappears.

So I have learnt to take each day, each hour , sometimes each moment as it comes.

And be grateful to be alive.