Never stop learning

In my 53 years I have learnt:

Love does not last forever
Not to take your health for granted
That parents do sadly die,sometimes when you least expect it
It is important to have a reason for being,
I am a unique human being who is still searching for happiness
There must be more to life than this...............

Enjoying the little things

In my new life I am learning:

Who my real friends are
Freedom brings joy but also loneliness
That spending quality time with my son is worth its weight in gold
To stop and give thanks for a new beginning
That spending time in my own company is a gift I need to appreciate, not fear
Who I really am and what I can achieve alone if I have focus and determination

Learning to love myself

I wanted to enjoy my new life.
Sadly it took longer than expected to escape.
And along the way,you got tired of waiting.
I keep hearing the phrase,'whatever does not kill you will make you stronger'.
But when you lose everything, you don't want to carry on. I was in so much pain, all I kept thinking about was ending my life.
Then I would be free of pain.

But in the end, I couldn't be so selfish.My son still needed a mum.
So I took tablets to numb the pain and stop the tears and helped me survive my blackest time of my life.
I am emerging slowly from the cloud which was hanging over me and the pain which was destroying my soul.
I thought God had deserted me too.But He was weeping with me.
Now I am learning to take each day, sometimes each hour at a time.
And I am trying to learn how to love myself.

I am back

Its been a while and I have much to tell you.
I am now sitting alone in my new house and am learning the art of enjoying my own company.I have been given a second chance. A fresh start. A new beginning.
I LOVE my new house and the freedom it brings.
I am happy and lonely, calm and feeling confused all at the same time.
I have yet to call this place home.
It will take time.
I was in shock for a while, feeling I was on holiday and would soon have to give back the front door keys and return to my old house.
But it is gradually sinking in that this is my house, my new house and this is real.
Its been a long time coming.
I don't regret anything.
Except the hurt I have caused.
But i could not have carried on with the life that I had.
It was killing me softly.

Serving God

The best way to serve God is by going in search of your own dreams.Only the happy can spread happiness.

Going Forward

When there is no turning back,we should concern ourselves with the best way of going forward.

A Gift

Every person on the face of the Earth has a gift. For some this is revealed spontaneously,others have to work to find it

Never assume

Never assume God has given up on you. You have simply given up on God.
I put myself in the centre of my life and I became self-absorbed and lost. Then one day I woke up. I put God in the centre of my life and everything changed. My heart filled with Love.
I went back to church and all my church family welcomed me back with open arms. I felt I had been missed. I felt I belonged again.

Life

Life has a habit of being unpredictable. The last few weeks have been hell as I faced the realisation that the house sale had fallen through and my plans for escape were in tatters.
Then yesterday , GOOD NEWS!! The house sale is back on and it looks like we are able to get on with our lives in a month or so.
I was fresh out of hope. I had given up . I thought God had given up on me.
Apparently not.

A glimmer of hope

Hope came knocking softly at my door this week. I was convinced it had the wrong address but it seems it may just be my turn to have some good news for once. We have not one but possibly 2 offer on the house this week .