I wanted to enjoy my new life.
Sadly it took longer than expected to escape.
And along the way,you got tired of waiting.
I keep hearing the phrase,'whatever does not kill you will make you stronger'.
But when you lose everything, you don't want to carry on. I was in so much pain, all I kept thinking about was ending my life.
Then I would be free of pain.
But in the end, I couldn't be so selfish.My son still needed a mum.
So I took tablets to numb the pain and stop the tears and helped me survive my blackest time of my life.
I am emerging slowly from the cloud which was hanging over me and the pain which was destroying my soul.
I thought God had deserted me too.But He was weeping with me.
Now I am learning to take each day, sometimes each hour at a time.
And I am trying to learn how to love myself.
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