Anniversaries

I have a friend who is very kind.
She remembers everything about my life, even when i don't.
She sends kind texts to tell me she is thinking of me on 'difficult days' , even when my day is not difficult.
So I have to search my brain to remember why certain days are 'difficult' and feel slightly guilty when I have slept through them or even enjoyed those 'special' days.

I got a text on Mother's Day.
I don't have a mum anymore so I think my friend thought it would be a 'difficult' day.
It wasn't because I was with family, enjoying my dad's birthday weekend.


This Saturday may well be a difficult day. I can feel the sadness mounting already in my heart and the tears building.

It will be 2 years since my mum died and it feels like yesterday.
I miss her laughter, her humour and her love.
I miss her sense of fun and her 'presence' in the world and in my life.
I miss her smell and elegance and her strength.

I miss being able to share things with her.
I miss her company.
Her hugs.
Her.